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When I...

...stand before God at the end of my life, I would hope that I would not have a single bit of talent left, and could say, "I used everything you gave me." ~Erma Bombeck

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Practice what I preach...

A couple of weeks ago, I posted yet ANOTHER...hummmm, let's call it a "Lindsey List". I mentioned the "highlight of my week" but was not able to tell all, or to reference my previous post "Spill it sister"...

I am going to be an Aunt (again) - Mark's brother, David, and his wife Karrie are expecting their first baby - God is so good!

After trying to become pregnant for over a year - we heard the sweetest sound in the world - a baby's heartbeat - on Thursday.

I am sure that you are wondering why I am acting like David and Karrie and I are all pregnant together - while that does sound like a chapter in my insane life, my attachment comes from this feeling I hold, almost as if I have sort of carried this baby in my heart for a very long time.

When Karrie confided in me (a year ago) that her and David were trying to get pregnant but having no luck - I was devastated for them, it was my mission to do all that I could to make this possible - at least all that God would allow me to do for this so deserving couple. I read - I learned - I prayed - I went to doctor's appointments - I read some more - I prayed some more.

Karrie is not only my sister-in-law, she is one of my very best friends. She knows my heart so well - I would be lost without her. While she has been by my side as my faith has grown to levels I never knew existed - I am so glad to have been by her side while her faith was tested on levels she never knew existed - none of this is by chance.

Another Fortenberry coming September 2010... Looks like Mark and I are next - maybe 2011!

So there you have it - I practice what I preach!

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Spill it sister...

It seems like us women have been trained to exchange secrets ever since we were little. It is hard to determine whether it is the sacred trust from one to another we learn to love or the special feeling we hold when we know that someone will keep our secrets under wraps – you must choose carefully. But pretty soon secrets get shared; lies get told and everything becomes one big mess – it isn’t worth it.

I cannot help but believe when women act covertly they are ultimately hurting no one but themselves – the benefits are only temporary. I see people (acquaintances, friends, loved ones, TV stars, etc…) lie to their children, their parents, husbands, girlfriends, siblings, coworkers – one after another – embellishing financial status, their children’s accomplishments, their age, their addictions, their relationships – in hopes to get what they want in the end, only to get burned.

It would be hypocritical not to acknowledge that I can relate – low self-esteem and the need to please others haunted me for years and years – many tears cried – but the life lessons I took away when I finally broke free were priceless.

It all comes down to what you’re missing, the life you want to live eludes you – the going has gotten tough and you’re trying to make it easy. Pretending will never change reality, you are not safeguarded by words – there is never an ethical explanation. It’s all so simple - - - Spill it sister!

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Divine Disorder

At home with my babies, working hard with the mommas and babies, or just driving down the road - I think about life. I think about where I am and where I have been and of course, where I am going. Life is full of lessons - the ones we have marked down as "done" and those we have yet to even prepare for. Most of all, lately, I have been thinking about others - those close to me, those that used to be - while, I know why it is not possible (or feasible) for people to hold the knowledge from others' life lessons - wouldn't it make life easier at times - if we not only knew then what we know now but if we knew what everyone else knew too.

1. Never lose hope.
2. Be forgiving.
3. Love should be unconditional.
4. A positive attitude heals.
5. Self-esteem is not optional.
6. Denial is no way to live.
7. Exercise will help you love longer.
8. You cannot love another til you love yourself.
9. Relationships require communication.
10. A mile in some one elses shoes is harder than you think.

There is balance in life - even when you think that you are in the midst of chaos and uncertainty. I have married - I have divorced. I have laughed - I have cried. I have been scared - I have been confident. I have lied - I have told the truth. I have cussed - I have prayed.

I have been blessed with so much - I have found a peace within myself by realizing that I have no control over the chaos that surrounds me; only my attitude with regard to such divine disorder.

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In her world...

...oranges are apples.

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A sneak peek at my week...

A sneak peek at my week…

1. Mark went back to work – light duty until his thumb is completely healed.

2. Greer is out of sorts without her Daddy at home.

3. Jackson brought home his report card – straight A’s – Amazing, Awesome, Astounding. Yes he is!

4. I applied for graduation – 112 days and counting.

5. Momma has been here to help – what would I do without her?

6. My car went to the shop – who knew your car made a funny noise when you don’t put the oil cap back on it – oops!

7. Ordered a new phone – been without mine too long (almost 2 weeks) – can’t wait to meet my new iphone.

8. After this weekend, I will have worked over 60 hours in 2 weeks – not including 32 hours of clinicals – really not that tired.

9. I have been in a much better frame of mind – the funk is gone – it won’t be missed!

10. Mark is going to physical therapy 3x a week – yesterday he says, “It doesn’t hurt as bad when I relax”- oh my – men patients – I’ll leave it at that!

11. Greer announced she wants an Abby Cadabby birthday cake – I better start practicing on that one NOW.

12. Thinking about Greer’s birthday makes me dread the day after – the big 31 for me.

13. Mark made reservations for dinner for he and I for Valentine's Day/My birthday weekend – I had already signed up for a couple of work shifts – we’re going to celebrate the weekend after – I wish I could tell you where but he says it is a surprise – I love him so.

14. Jackson’s next MRI is February 11th – pray, pray, pray…

15. The highlight of my week is something I cannot yet tell everyone – but I am thrilled beyond words – everything in God’s time.

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