A guided tour of hell!

I write this with the twinge of a migraine remaining in the right side of my head. The number of migraines I have had in recent months is staggering; my frustration level is rising. I have tried preventative medication (last few weeks most recently) and after puking my guts for 10 days…I stopped last Monday; 2 migraines since.

The medication is $47 per pill (that IS with insurance) which adds to the pain. I feel guilty for spending so much money on a “ridiculous headache” which causes me to wait longer before taking any medication; by then it’s too late. It’s a delusion; I try to assure myself that I couldn't possibly be getting yet another migraine.

This migraine crap is taking its toll.

I’m aware of the triggers…caffeine, chocolate, hormones…all essentials to being a woman. Aside from the hormones, I am certain that caffeine and chocolate are NOT triggers for me…hormones, whether they are OR are not – how can I prevent that? I do not have ANY migraines when I am pregnant and while another baby is in the talks at our house, I definitely cannot stay pregnant. Above all, my migraines more than likely stem from my genes; handed down from my daddy. I watched him as his attacks came on slowly and crested into intolerable pain. His pain is now my pain. God rest his soul.

This endless cycle of pain and self-doubt is devastating to my otherwise active and productive life. When a migraine comes on, I often must struggle through the day in a haze of unendurable pain, never time to stop. It is simply a guided tour of hell.

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