Preconceptional counseling? Mark and I have been tossing around the idea of another baby, while we have always known that we are going to have one or two more – at this point the only question was timing. As I prepare to graduate – the timing is perfect for us… little did I know I would soon get another life lesson in “not everything happens in our time”.
While talking to my much loved OB/GYN during my appointment, I was trying to explain how I was SO ready to get pregnant in one hand but so very hesitant to have my IUD removed in the other – I was hit with the good ole fashioned W.I. (women’s intuition – it never fails me).
About 5 minutes later, during my breast exam my doctor found a lump in my left breast – it wasn’t the words she spoke that chilled my bones but the look on her face. Despite the what she was thinking, she spoke encouraging words she was… “SteLLaR” actually (that is what she calls things that are fabulous) – I trust her with every inch of my being.
2 weeks later – results of a mammogram (view after view after view) and ultrasound (performed by by the tech and eventually the doctor personally) confirmed the lump is suspicious; I had been told to plan on a biopsy that day – there would be none. The radiologist said it was a waste of time – this lump is something that we cannot “sit” on she explained – I felt the lump in my breast migrate to my throat. I have an appointment next week for a surgical consult – I’ll be scheduling my lumpectomy – needles, cuts, stitches and ultimately a pathology report await me.
This is just another chapter in the book that will eventually make me famous – I
have lots of faith, after all, if you feed your faith – your fears will starve to death.
Any Questions?
5 comments:
I'll be thinking about you and praying.
So...I have been anxiously awaiting this post. I know it is hard for you to swallow, but God's plan is perfect and so is His timing (we all know that for sure :))If He brings you in it, He will pull you through. Good or bad, we are standing on the Rock. Always know that prayers are going up and God is so good and He listens. I will continue to be your prayer warrior, just as you have been mine and I believe God will do big things. This scripture was laid on my heart for you this week at church. I love you more than you know, you have truly been my "here on earth" rock!!!
Ephesians 1:11-12
"In Him we are also chosen, having been predestined according to the plan of him who works out everything in accordance to His will, in order that we, who were the first to hope in Christ, might be for the praise of His glory."
Love you Linds!!
Good thing for you, you have an immediate group of prayer warriors on your side! All of Jackson's warriors will be lifting prayers for you now, too, Lindsey!
Do not worry about anything, rather pray about everything...Phil 4:6
Lindsey, You are such an amazing person! This twist in the road is only a twist that will wind its way out. God is good and HE is also in control. I will be praying for you and your family that you will have peace and calmness as you travel this unexpected twist.
And your inspiring story continues to unfold...
What a testimony you have, my friend! What an amazing testimony! Praying for you. I love you.
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