Cancer hit our home like a bomb in 2008 – while much perspective has been gained through this journey – I’d have to say there must be better ways to learn life lessons. I cannot speak personally – it was my child that was chosen – he was handed a 10,000 pound rock to carry with him for the rest of his life.
He is tough, tougher than any person I have ever met – hands down! His ability to accept his new life – take this heavy load and never bat an eye – has surpassed anything I have ever seen – he is amazing.
Every once in a while, on nights like tonight, that rock gets too heavy and Jackson grows weary; his emotions become uncontrollable, can you blame him? While I’d like to ring his neck I know that I too am angry not at him but at the same brain tumor that brings his anger. Cancer sucks.
A good MRI report brings hope for the future and the light of a possibility that Jackson may never have to have treatment again however; there is nothing in this world – not my words, my touch, my tears, or even my hatred for this horrible disease – that can replace the childhood that was ripped away from my angel far too soon. The doctors can give him highfives, tell him good news, and even take out his port but they cannot give Jackson the carefree life he once had. What I wouldn’t give to shoulder this burden for him – it’s just not fair.
What people take for granted, I cling to. There is no going back – only forward. I live knowing that when God brings you to it – He will see you through it.
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