A child’s death is not a natural part of life – in a parent’s world it’s never expected and impossible to get over – my thoughts don’t come from knowing but gratefully from mere deliberation.
How my view of the world would change – upside down so to speak. My heart would become a dark, hardened place – my lungs unable to hold air. The physical ache too much for my body to take – the sobbing, the yearning, the anguish, the grieving… Praying would be more begging and less blessing – I imagine losing a child is like being thrown in quicksand – your entire body slowing becoming engulfed and no matter how hard you pull, push, or press – your fate is certain.
Yesterday, May 28 2010, Katie Caroline received her angel wings; she now lives with God, He is sharing with her, His wonderful treasures. An entire community is now in mourning, a family, consumed by grief, dealing with an unspeakable loss. In uncertain time there is only One certain, God holds the controls.
Anytime there is a loss – I think of a monologue by Kelly Corrigan, the author of The Middle Place – I encourage you to read the monologue and the book – but for now I’ll close by quoting the last paragraph of the monologue.
“Eventually, someone whose not supposed to die will, maybe one of us, maybe a husband, God forbid a child, and all this celebrating and sharing and confessing will make certain essential comforts possible. We’ll rally around and hold each other up and it won’t be nearly enough but it will help the time pass just a hair faster than it would have otherwise. We will wait patiently and lovingly for that first laugh after the loss. When it comes, and it will come, we will cry as we howl as we clutch as we circle. We will transcend, ladies. Because we did all this, in that worst moment, we will transcend.”
May our loving God carry and sustain Toni, Will, and Lainey through this time for it is He that can bring them peace to places none of our loving words can touch.
Fly high Katie Caroline – we will see you again!
Yesterday, May 28 2010, Katie Caroline received her angel wings; she now lives with God, He is sharing with her, His wonderful treasures. An entire community is now in mourning, a family, consumed by grief, dealing with an unspeakable loss. In uncertain time there is only One certain, God holds the controls.
Anytime there is a loss – I think of a monologue by Kelly Corrigan, the author of The Middle Place – I encourage you to read the monologue and the book – but for now I’ll close by quoting the last paragraph of the monologue.
“Eventually, someone whose not supposed to die will, maybe one of us, maybe a husband, God forbid a child, and all this celebrating and sharing and confessing will make certain essential comforts possible. We’ll rally around and hold each other up and it won’t be nearly enough but it will help the time pass just a hair faster than it would have otherwise. We will wait patiently and lovingly for that first laugh after the loss. When it comes, and it will come, we will cry as we howl as we clutch as we circle. We will transcend, ladies. Because we did all this, in that worst moment, we will transcend.”
May our loving God carry and sustain Toni, Will, and Lainey through this time for it is He that can bring them peace to places none of our loving words can touch.
Fly high Katie Caroline – we will see you again!
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